Wednesday, January 26, 2011

karma!

what goes around comes around..
kenapa kadang2 tu kita selalu sedar akan kesalahan org laen..
tp kesalahan  kita sndiri kita xpenah nk sedar2..
hidup kita mcm mmg ditakdirkn supaya cari kesalahan org laen..
then later on kesalahan org laen tu kita sndr lakukan..
tp apa yg kita buat kita akn rasa betul sahaja..
xkira apa pun kan kan..

ini kisah nye..
dlm stiap prhubungan mst ada je perasan jeles lah ,terasa merasa lah n apa2 lah..
ada baik dan buruk nye smua tu..
for example lah kan..
jeles??adakah ianya satu tindakan or tabiat yg teruk??
kalau lah dlm prhubungan xde bnde jeles ni konfem jd mcm tggul kayu..
bygkn kalau tggul kayu tu brcinta sesame tnggul kayu..
xke dua2 mcm kayu...(mksd ak dua2 buat hal sndri..mcm xde perasaan)
dari apa yg ak tau lah kan..
cinta is smthng that u should experience it on ur own..
u need ur own way to handle the situations.
not evryone learn from others rite..
what i trying to say is..
jeles is not smthing u should put aside...
it is smthng that u need to tke seriously because it is about feelings
when u're jealous u are actually proves to ur mate that u are really in love with him or her.
u cannot see ur mate with another person even the person is smone who are closed to u..
bygkn kalau dlm p'hubungan tu msng xde perasaan jeles lnsg..
konfem hbgn tu rasa mcm xde pape je..xde feel org kate..

ak akui yg ak mmg kuat jeles..
even bnde kecik pun ak akn jeles bila gf ak dgn org lain..
ak pun xtau knpa ak kuat jeles..
myb sbb ak xpnah rasa btul2 b'cinta..
ni 1st time yg ak rasa btul2 disayangi dan dicintai..
dlu ak selalu gelakkn mmbe ak kalau dorg jeles dgn awek dorg..
ak slalu ckp,kalau dorg jeles dgn awek dorng so y not buat awek dorg jeles balik..
n ak rasa berkat ak ckp mcm tu..
ak kena blk skng ni...
ak slalu jeles dgn gf ak sbb ada kwan llaki..
xsalah pun sbnr nye..
even ak pun ada kawn prmpuan..
tp tulah kalau dh llki yg jenis kuat jeles apa pun boleh jd issue..
tp ak ni bkn jenis yg suka besar2 kan mslh..
kalau boleh smua mslh ak dlm hidup ni ak nk kecik kan..
sbb tu stiap kali ak jeles dgn gf ak..
ak akn fikir blik..

ak akn fkir blk ,ak akn fikir apa yg gf ak buat tu ak penah buat x??
n majoriti ak rasa ak pnah buat jgk apa yg die buat...
sbgi contoh lah kan..
die cmmnt dkt fb dgn llki laen..
n ak pun ada jgk lgi bnyk kott...
die kluar dgn kwan2 llki die.
ak pun penah je..
tp apa salah die sbnr nye..????
ak rasa xde satu pun salah die......
n apa yg ak discover is my jealousy!!!!
tu lah punce segala2 nye....

nk dijdikn cite..
ak selalu jeles dgn die..sllu jdkn sorng ni sbg punce jeles..
tp tu lah..bkn salah die pun...
nsb baek ak jenis yg cpt brtindak mcm POWER RANGERS!!!
so sekjap je akn oke..
kita jgn cepat mngaku kalah n cepat b'puas hati..
kita kne sllu mngalah kalau nk bjaya dlm relationship..
xsalah kan...bnde smua untk kebaikan..
jgn jd ego...buang ego tu jauh2...
ego punce keretakan...

im so sorry to sabrina azman..
i knw i;ve done wrong..
i knw that u felt like been betrayed by me..
i knw its kinda hard to hear her name..
i just want u to knw even all this happen i still loving you with all my heart..
i knw that i always used the same word to described how much i love you..
but that is the suitble and the best and that really show what i feel..
my heart only for u..
she's just a friend to me...nothing more..



im so in love with you sabrina azman!!
i love you so muchhh....

Friday, January 7, 2011

1st week :p

first week of my semester 6!

its start like a shit...
otw blk melaka menaiki motor..
1st time bwk moto blk melaka bandar bsejarah..
nk tmbh kan sejarah lgi dimana ak lupa nk isi mnyk..
n i end up dgn minyak habis n hampir2 tersadai dkt brisu!ahaha
nsb baek dgn kecekalan hati akhir nye dpt mntk tlg sorg pkcik ni..
snggh baek pkcik ni..:)
tnpe die..ak kan stuck dkt situ untk mase yg lame...
hahhahaaa...thnks to tht pkcik..

n then smpai di umah sewa...
umah kemas tp kitrg trpakse mandi mnggunakn air dri sinki dapur..
gara2 air tangki rosak..haha
tp ada jgk lah sehari tu xmandi...sbb xde klas or myb ponteng kott time tu..haha

1st klas tuk dis week ak dh ponteng..
kenapa?sbb ak segan n rasa malas sgt..
klas 8.30 pg n hnye ada satu je klas tuk dat day..
mmg brtambah malas gila lah ak nk gi..haha

mood ak di klas tuk dis week agak ceria..
sbb xfokus lnsg pun dkt lecturer ak dkt dpn..
yg jd mangsa mmber dkt sblah..
ada sekali kantoi dgn lectrr..
kantoi sibuk borak dgn org sblah,,,
last2 kna pnggl dduk dpn n bcakap...
mmg nervous lah ak..haha

n dis week jgk ak dpt lepas rindu..
rindu dkt gadis jelita idaman hati saya..
dh sebulan lebih xjmpe..
dh mcm apa dah ak ni...
mcm org gila pun ada..
gila meaning ak angau lah..
bkn gila mcm org btul2 gila..
kalau btul2 gila dia pun xnk ak dh...haha

sabrina azman i love you so muchh <3

Saturday, January 1, 2011

injuries!

lately bahu ak makin teruk..
senang sangat tekeluar..
ak dh mcm nk cabut je bahu ak ni..
serius sakit gila...
nk operate ak takut nk hadap mak ak nk gtau..
kang die bising psal ak maen rgby..
tp nk buat mcm mane...
kalau ak xmaen rgby ape je yg ak boleh buat dgn hidup ak!

bahu oh bahu..
ak sayang kau tp kenapa kau layan ak mcm ni..
ak xkisah kau nk sakit tp jgn lah selalu..
ni x time ak tgh rileks2 tiba kau bole terkeluar..
sakit tu jgn ckp lah!
kau bayang bila bahu lari dri position yg sbnr..
dgr mcm alah biase je tu..
tp kalau dh rasa sndri bru kau tau!
benci ah mcm ni..
ak nk buat maen rgby lg..
tgk lah wahai rgby ku..
ada rezeki ak maen lg k...hehe